What a beautiful read! I think so many of us have been conditioned to be programmed to the ALL American story. I wanted to be a teacher, geologist, RCMP, manager and carpenter. What a journey! But those are all labels that we might carry for a while. None of them are real. It takes years to un-program SELF and just be enough to "be".
This is so timely for me. I’m currently in this strange inbetween, mental chaos about what I am “supposed to be doing,” wanting to do everything, and feeling like there isn’t enough time to do it all. Then the feeling of pressure that comes from thinking, “I have to pick just one thing...but what if I pick the wrong thing.” It’s a cognitive nightmare. Thank you for sharing this piece 💙
Ohhh, I know this rhetoric all too well: thinking about what I'm supposed to be doing....wanting to do everything...feeling like I'm running out of time, putting a ton of pressure on myself to "pick the RIGHT option and FAST"...cognitive nightmare is right.
Every now and then I get a fleeting realization that there are no wrong answers, no wrong choices, it's not binary, and all roads lead to growth and learning - - - but, it is FLEETING and hard to hold onto!
What a beautiful read! I think so many of us have been conditioned to be programmed to the ALL American story. I wanted to be a teacher, geologist, RCMP, manager and carpenter. What a journey! But those are all labels that we might carry for a while. None of them are real. It takes years to un-program SELF and just be enough to "be".
Aho!
Thank you! Yes, what a journey, indeed. Thank you for reading and commenting :)
This is so timely for me. I’m currently in this strange inbetween, mental chaos about what I am “supposed to be doing,” wanting to do everything, and feeling like there isn’t enough time to do it all. Then the feeling of pressure that comes from thinking, “I have to pick just one thing...but what if I pick the wrong thing.” It’s a cognitive nightmare. Thank you for sharing this piece 💙
Ohhh, I know this rhetoric all too well: thinking about what I'm supposed to be doing....wanting to do everything...feeling like I'm running out of time, putting a ton of pressure on myself to "pick the RIGHT option and FAST"...cognitive nightmare is right.
Every now and then I get a fleeting realization that there are no wrong answers, no wrong choices, it's not binary, and all roads lead to growth and learning - - - but, it is FLEETING and hard to hold onto!
SO HARD TO HOLD ONTO!